Things looking down

I'm finding it's hard to stay upbeat these days.

My training does not seem to be having the right effect. Instead of losing weight, I have been putting it on. My cardio is nowhere near what I would like it to be.

Also, due to a mystery condition, my fingers swell up after I climb. So I haven't been climbing recently either. Doctor's appointment is in three weeks. I hope it isn't a cartilage injury, because that would suck. They don't really ever go away.

And lastly, and probably what is affecting me the most, is my sterility. I notice that it seems to be a taboo that nobody wants to talk about. Any time I try and bring it up, people quickly try and change the subject. Either that or give the "you never know, miracles can happen" pep talk. Too bad I'm too much of a realist to be bullshitted by that. Even a 1% chance per coitus would mean we should expect 99 months (8 years, 3 months). The variance on the distribution is depressing, so I won't even go into that.

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